It’s worth a nickel

i’ve just re-read my blog from friday. this is what happens when chris is overly emotional and has access to technology.

i am not a fan of revisionist history; however, i do admit to seriously considering deleting the post. definitely not chris-at-chris’s-best.

today, the sun is out. it’s a crisp autumn day. and i had a fabulous therapy session this morning.

and, in the interest of full disclosure: paul is home, the friend who cancelled on me on friday has pneumonia, and the cookies were a big hit at grandpa’s party.

as ralphie from a christmas story once said, all is right with the world.

paul left for australia last saturday afternoon. i hate it when he travels, because it means i’m on my own, and that’s never a fun thing for me.

but this time i was doing so well. jimmy took me out saturday night … yay for the bonefish and a little time at the wave. even though wave was possibly the worst it’s ever been, jimmy, sal, nick and i had fun! i got lots of stuff done around the house on sunday despite being (somewhat) hungover, and then the work week was pretty normal.

so despite the fact that we’re a having a storm of biblical proportions over here (12″ of rain this week!), i was on track to not be too depressed this week. and then it happened.

once again, i applied for and interviewed for a job that i actually wanted. and once again, i found out yesterday afternoon that they gave it to somebody else.

this afternoon i made chocolate chip cookies for my grandfather’s birthday party tomorrow, and i cried while making them as i realized … it’s my grandmother’s recipe, and it’s the first time i’ve made them since she died earlier this year. why do things like that always hit me so hard?

then i made plans to have dinner with a new friend tonight, and he cancelled.

i want to just get over it, but it makes me sad. disappointed. depressed.

thank goodness paul comes home tomorrow, because then things will be back to normal.