It’s worth a nickel

it’s interesting that in an increasingly connected world, i manage to feel so disconnected. despite amazing advances in technology, i rarely make the time to reach out to the people in my life who aren’t omnipresent.

in talking with my friend ewan last week, he reminded me that i do think of people often, even though i don’t necessarily let them know it. but is that enough? i wish i had the time — no, more correctly, i wish i made the time — to connect.

i’ve had a lot of frustration in my life lately, most of it centering around my job, which has become more stressful for a mountain of reasons. sometimes, i let that stress get in the way of recognizing the incredible blessings in my life, including my family and friends, my puppy jake!, and the wonderful life paul and i have built together. it’s time to get back on track and remember those things, instead of the crap.

in my daily life, i think of so many wonderful people each day. a comment, a song, a billboard … who knows what may catch my attention and turn my thoughts to you. i hope each person reading this understands that in some way, you’ve contributed to the person i am today, and i’m grateful for that.

over the past two weeks, i’ve had three fun outings with peter. we saw wicked last weekend, were conspiratorially judgemental at jimmy’s party last night, and had dinner at gino’s tonight.

i love him, and i just wish i got to spend more time with him.

it’s so incredibly easy to get caught up in the day-to-day and lose sight of the bigger picture. at least that’s true for me … i’m more interested in the details.

on friday i drove up to boston to spend the weekend with erica. i haven’t seen her in over a year … it was actually august of 2004! it was hardly a whirlwind tour of boston, but i wasn’t expecting one. it was a chance to catch up, update, chit chat … whatever you like to call it.

but it was a grounding experience. in many ways, despite the changes in our lives, nothing has changed. she’s nuts, i’m nuts, and we’re just a year older.

it’s important to value our old friends. i’ve known erica for almost ten years, and there’s inherently something important in that. she understands my roots, how i became who i am today. but at the same time, i’m thankful for the new people in my life … some very, very new people are making a difference in my life in huge ways, and i love them for it.