It’s worth a nickel

paul left for australia last saturday afternoon. i hate it when he travels, because it means i’m on my own, and that’s never a fun thing for me.

but this time i was doing so well. jimmy took me out saturday night … yay for the bonefish and a little time at the wave. even though wave was possibly the worst it’s ever been, jimmy, sal, nick and i had fun! i got lots of stuff done around the house on sunday despite being (somewhat) hungover, and then the work week was pretty normal.

so despite the fact that we’re a having a storm of biblical proportions over here (12″ of rain this week!), i was on track to not be too depressed this week. and then it happened.

once again, i applied for and interviewed for a job that i actually wanted. and once again, i found out yesterday afternoon that they gave it to somebody else.

this afternoon i made chocolate chip cookies for my grandfather’s birthday party tomorrow, and i cried while making them as i realized … it’s my grandmother’s recipe, and it’s the first time i’ve made them since she died earlier this year. why do things like that always hit me so hard?

then i made plans to have dinner with a new friend tonight, and he cancelled.

i want to just get over it, but it makes me sad. disappointed. depressed.

thank goodness paul comes home tomorrow, because then things will be back to normal.

so we went to wave on saturday night… jimmy, peter, paul and me. and it was dead. i mean it was really dead, which is probably attributable to the fact that it’s summertime so all the cute college boys are at home.

but we had a kick-ass time. not that i go to wave very often, but i would this saturday in the top 3 of my visits there.

and jimmy kissed a boy. actually jimmy kissed a lot of people (lol), but there was this one boy who he thought was cute from minute one … that’s the one that counts.

the moral of the story, as we all agreed at the end of the evening, is that you have to make your own good time. if we had been alone, just the 4 of us… it would have still been an incredible night.