Being honest with yourself
5th May 2008 |
It’s so much easier, over the short haul, to lie to yourself.
But it adds up over time and makes your life a living hell.
So being honest with yourself, although difficult in the moment, is a lot more rewarding in the long run.
First, you have to admit it to yourself, whatever “it” is. Then you have to be able to say it out loud, and that makes it so much more real.
I had a fantastic conversation with my therapist this morning, and I was finally able to say “it” out loud.
My biggest fear in life is being alone.
That’s it. The biggest thing. My motivator in all things. And it has damaged (ruined?) relationships for me. It has hurt my career. It has made me, and those around me, suffer. If you’re one of the people I’ve hurt because I’m afraid of being rejected and abandoned, I’m sorry about that.
All because I’m afraid of being alone.
6 May 2008 at 9:15 am | Link
Jay wrote…
That takes a lot to admit and I think it’s “funny strange” that sometimes people’s worst fears are often ones least likely to come to pass.
You are by far too wonderful to be alone, not that it doesn’t take a talented, gifted and handsome person to love you but you by far too special to be solo.
7 May 2008 at 11:12 am | Link
Himmy wrote…
Interesting. I’ve pretty much always known and been able to admit to both myself and others that being alone is my biggest fear, followed quite closely by being rejected/abandonment. It’s probably why I cry so hard every time I watch the movie a.i.
8 May 2008 at 6:49 pm | Link
smack wrote…
you know what’s weird? One of my biggest fears is never being left alone.
15 May 2008 at 1:57 pm | Link
Jay wrote…
You know I think it hit me the other day that my biggest fear is being unwanted or a nuisance.
I’d rather be alone in the wilderness then with people who are simply tolerating me.
With that said *hugs*, can’t wait to see you and hope I’m not a burden!